PTSD: The Soldier’s Diaries
Bucky Barnes and his dog.
Tag: steve rogers
sarah rogers had the patience of a saint, and loved her troublemakers very much.
She taught Steve how to play poker and how to cheat so that he’d know if someone was putting one up on him. She taught him how to play chess and one memorable afternoon, when Steve was too sick to go to school, she spent it detailing one of Napoleon’s military campaigns.
(Sarah loved history, especially military history. Her Da used to call her The Morrigan, Boudicaa the Queen and she’d laugh and toss her head and say, maybe so. It was what made Joseph Rogers fall in love with her.)
Bucky would make it just in time, with Steve’s homework, as Sarah Rogers would get to the part about Napoleon Bonaparte’s attempt to conquer Russia.
This was when the boys would first learn that ancient proverb: Never attack Russia in winter.
She bandaged up hurts and kissed bruises better and even Bucky didn’t escape the coddling because, “Oh no you don’t, Bucko, I am not sending you back to your mother like that.”
Sarah Rogers knew a lot of things and would stare you down coldly if you mouthed off about “knowledge not suitable for the “weaker sex.” Her general response to that was, “Sir, you come back to me after pushing out an eight pound child out of your nether regions and then speak about us being the ‘weaker’ sex.”
Sarah was not often given to vulgarity but she had little patience for fools. She hated bullies as much as her son did.
Sarah Rogers had the difficult task of being father and mother to her boy Steve. She managed to be both. Exceptionally well.
She called Bucky “Bucko” and he got just as many hugs as Steve did, mainly because she could see how much he loved her boy, looked out for him and was, indeed, the best and dearest friend he could ever have.
The boys still miss her to this very day.
FRIENDLY REMINDER THAT STEVE TRIED TO TRIGGER BUCKY’S MEMORIES BY WEARING HIS LESS DURABLE RETRO!UNIFORM (aka the not-so-bulletproof outfit he wore the last time Bucky saw him) AND BY QUOTING SOMETHING BUCKY SAID TO HIM 70-SOMETHING YEARS AGO
Okay okay but can we just talk about this? The entire movie Steve’s worth is defined by what Captain America has become. He goes to the Smithsonian to see Captain America’s life projected back at him — the boy he was before a footnote, the sickly waif who wasn’t good enough until the army (literally) made him A Man — while he’s there he walks around unrecognized; the entire gag at the mall is based on the idea that this is a 6’2” hulking muscled mass of a guy who absolutely no one recognizes unless he has that star on his chest, because it’s the suit, not the person, who’s been given worth. And when Steve thinks about the most memorable thing about himself — when he thinks about how to get Bucky back — he goes for that. He goes for Captain America. And it doesn’t work; Bucky doesn’t react at all. Because Bucky always saw through that. He didn’t give a shit about Captain America. That “little guy from Brooklyn,” that’s the kid he loved, that’s the one he was following when he died, the one who’s scared voice knocked the memories out of him earlier in the movie. And it’s only when Steve drops the shield, and the helmet — all of the things that make him Captain America, that make him immediately recognizable to the rest of the country, to the world — when he calls on this one, rogue memory from when they were just kids, from before he was the national ideal of manhood he’s been made out to be since his death… That’s when Bucky sees him. Because Bucky doesn’t remember, or care about Captain America: Captain America is just a target. But Steve Rogers, that little kid from Brooklyn? Is under him, and dying, and scared…and the impulse to protect is so much stronger than anything else that’s been done to Bucky since then.
I could recognize him by touch alone, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I would know him in death, at the end of the world.
“Now I need you to carry me just a little bit further… if you can.”
Prep him.
Damn.
[[ Captain America ]] Steve Rogers, Bucky Barnes
A bit of comic and inking practice in progress.
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A Steve is a Steve no matter how small.
A Steve is a Steve no matter how tall.
Really highlights how much of a difference Bucky would have had to get used to.
OMFG I JUST REALIZED IMAGNINE HOW MANY TIMES BUCKY TURNED AROUND TO SAY SOMETHING TO STEVE AND WAS SUDDENLY TALKING TO HIS BOOBS AND YOU JUST KNOW STEVE CRACKED A JOKE ABOUT “MY EYES ARE UP HERE, BUDDY” AND “IS THIS WHAT IT’S LIKE TO BE ONE OF THE GIRLS YOU DATE? *COVERS CHEST IN PRETEND SHYNESS*”
aslkdfjasdfkljsfjk ITS SO AMUSING!
OMG YES
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